Harmoniously Most Dangerous Weapons PADF

"The 'stranger [PADF being Albert Camus oui L’Étranger]' was sensed as greatest menace in ancient communities" (tat tvam asi Jim Morrison PF oh beautiful 69)

"Expose yourself to your deepest fear; after that, fear has no power, and the fear of freedom shrinks and vanishes. You are free" (Morrison).

"

But in the end one needs more courage to live than to kill himself."

Albert Camus

Original French: 

"Des fois, il faut plus de courage pour vivre que pour se tuer.

Et Camus semble nous crier : « À la mer ! À la mer ! Seule la mer nous sauvera ! » Chaque jour qui passe ruine, un peu plus, nos espérances"
Des fois, il faut agir (réagir), faire vite" (http://www.lafauteadiderot.net/Albert-Camus-vivant-plus-vivant).

Condemned to the /

Undesired / 

[Outlier status] Nether realms [regions] of /

Anomie /

And assumed obsolescence /

An outsider /

Condemned /

To live as a forsaken /

Incel /

Amidst billions of easy lays /

Locally? /

At least 10 million /

In a city that claims to never sleep /

But versus my favorite Tropical Paradise / 

Where I find the CURE /

To my urban malaise--hermit turned overeducated untouchable--this shithole is merely a doldrums filled ocean of polluted fluids /

Oozing about /

Flooding past [unclean] clogged drains /

Filthy beyond comprehension / 

A pathetic, ugly beast /

Bloated to the maximum with plastic containers and used condoms / 

Documenting the repulsive wasteful habits of a deluded populace /

Held together with steel buttresses/

Like a perpetual supply of artificial joints for spent, aging, novice athletes / Across miles of concrete jungle /

Like the Wailers: /

Instead of this post Columbus haole dominated hell / 

Where I am bound in captivity / 

Where is the love to be found? / 

Wahines and brahs, we've got to do our best! /

And they wish to view me as the undesired heretic? / 

Like a perpetual metaphysical leper? /

Fine with me, as I dwell in my peaceful Pascalian sanctuary / An English-speaking hikikomori [ひきこもり]× 引き篭もり / 

Transformed into an Invisible Man /

[Forced into] Under house arrest / 

For daring to imagine I deserved a life with an average looking healthy woman and a decent job / 

But soon off to Asian adventures again / 

Hopefully not misadventures / 

But even that doesn't scare me anymore / 

In a life filled with and thus far dominated--yes defined as a wretched tragedy--by innumerable bouts of Murphy's Law scenarios / 

Like a combination of Morrison and Camus PF I realize: embracing and not fearing death or anything for that matter brings freedom and to endure a life this horrible is more courageous than to have committed suicide like so many weak willed opiate overdosed gun wielding maniacs / 

You see my resistance has reminded me to /

Have no fear! /

Have no sorrow! / 

Have no regret! / 

So I focus on being more pleasurable than all pleasurable experiences, including all pleasurable orgasmic sex PF and all pleasurable drugs PF, and all pleasurable games /

So this time / 

Ready /

Waiting / 

Expecting Murphy's Law /

And living as my own drill Sgt /

Cursing, spitting /

And cleaning the most dangerous weapons PADF with machine-like efficiency / 

While blindfolded in the dark /

A hybridized [hybrid emergent]/

Militarized /

Freak / 

Ready for your / 

Spectacle-filled /

Frigid carnivals

Emerging from my Platonic cave /

My eyes burning /

But desperate to see the sun /

Again? / 

Yes, I was there before /

But I am wary of waking up /

My fellow captives. 

Are they ready? /

Is anyone ever ready?

Coeds Sinequanoniatry PF Soulagement.